My Uninteresting Life

general life update number 2

2009-04-13T04:33:08Z

Alright now onto Family…Everybody is doing pretty good. Carissa and Brianna are getting so freakin big its nuts! Well one night Tee calls us from NJ saying we need to get down there cause Aunt Trish is dieing and has AIDS, so that was a crazy time…it all started in December and she just passed away in February. We went down and saw her a couple times and stuff. It was crazy we hadn’t even spoken since Justin’s funeral. Well Brandon’s in Jail of course, we went to visit him a couple weeks ago. Tee is good, he’s been with this girl Missy for a long time and she’s mad nice. I went down there and spent the night with them and smoked and stuff. Jason was in jail for 4 years and got out, got another girl pregnant and lives with her but she’s grooooosssssssss, but now he’s going back to jail which sucks I was trying to go down there all the time in the summer. We all got high together too, it was soooo weird being with them again, I just miss Justin so freakin much it sucks. I feel so bad for them, they lost there 17 year old brother and now there mom! Damn. Well enough about that

I been chillin with a lot of people since me and Jeff broke up its nice. Nikki from Columbia has her own place and has parties a lot so I go there all the time and meet a bunch of people. Then I’m still friends with Kayla and we do a lot of stuff together. She was actually with this boy named David who she was in love with and they were engaged and lived together and she got prego, well then he decides to tell her 6 months into the pregnancy that he already has another baby! So she left him and moved back home and is now putting the baby up for adoption so she’s been having a rough time. Then I met a lot of people through Adam that I chill with too. Ali is just insane and controlling and hates everyone and expects me too do the same and I cant take it anymore. She tried to actually attack me the one night at Adams and mikie had to lay her out so that was the final straw for me. I don’t need her constant negativity in my life anymore.

Ok now Adam. Well I was in loooove with him in 9th grade. So we started talking on myspace but he had a gf forever well they broke up and we started hanging out in August. And just never really stopped since then. I was really into dating him for awhile but then learned he’s a player asshole. Soooo now we are just friends and occasional fuck buddies lol. I mean I wish he wasn’t like that because we have so much in common and he’s just mad cool, but I cant take that shit. We had a lot of fun times together cus he has his own place so we had partied and stuff, well we still do just not as much. But I def had a lot of fun memories with him in the past 7 months!!!! Crazy ass times for sure.

Random Memories…
-Went to see PLIES and G-Unit and Lil Boosie in concert in September, was really the best day of my life.
-Went to NYC for the day and fell in love in May then went for 2 nights with my mom in September it was incredible.
-Went to Pittsburgh with ali to see Matt and them it was alright
-Got on Weight Watchers for 3 months and lost 20 pounds, now gained it all back
-Started smoking nasty ciggs again

OMG

2009-03-30T06:55:20Z

Wow, so it has been freaking long since I wrote in a journal!!! Over a year geeze!!! Alright well obviously I can’t write everything that has happened in the past year so I’ll just write some random stuff I can remember…

~Well me and Sarah did go to Pittsburgh and it turned out to be a lot of fun, well the Grant part anyway…Clinton was still a wack job. We also went to Wild J’s a bunch more times and stayed at Scott and Stacy’s and had fun. One time we brought Ali and Jeff it was there first time at a strip club and Jeff fall backwards when he was getting a lap dance..hahaha sooooo funny.

~Me and Ali got super close again like we were in 8th and 9th grade and were up until 2 or 3 weeks ago, now I doubt it can ever be the same, I'll explain later. But yea we pretty much did everything together. Went a bunch of random places actually had a kick ass time at the Etown fair for some reason, riding rides, ripping down redneck shit, yelling goooo Obama lol. Her dad actually had a heart attack October 08 too so that sucked but he’s good now. We went to a bunch of Halloween places this year too.

~As for me n Jeff haha. Ooook well last year I see we were broken up last time I updated lol. I don’t know that I really consider that broken up now looking back at it. We still chilled and fucked alllllll the time. I only fooled around with one other guy during that time and didn’t have sex or anything with anyone else. But then we officially got “back together” in like May or something and went to the beach and had an amazing time. We went to wildwood most the time but spent 2 days in Atlantic City, it was sooo much fun for some reason. But me and Jeff have nothing at all in common and he has no life goals or ambitions and it has always drivin me insane. It just got really bad and I actually really did leave him at the end of August when I started chillin with Adam again…I’ll get to him later. Well Jeff and I didn’t talk for like 3 months I’d say and he was going insane but then started to get over it and had maaaad friends and stuff. Well during one of me n Adams not talking times I of course had to want Jeff just cause he had other bitches..it was dumb of me and we chilled and had sex and all that off and on until like a month ago..i mean not dating just friends type thing. Well that’s not how he’s looking at it of course, and I feel horrible I guess I was messing with his feelings but I thought he knew where we stood. So even though I do care about him, but do not love him anymore, I am just going to stop talking to him pretty much all together, I already have been for like a week or so. Sooo that’s a bunch of drama I guess. Well I mean it doesn’t really effect me all like that usually but whatever.

~Ok school and work next. I still go to Hacc slowly but surely. I am only taking one class online again shit always happens its annoying. I worked at the daycare until a month ago. Well I worked where I started with the infants until August and then in the preschool year old room where I was the actual afternoon teacher. I loved the job for the most part. Absolutely adored my kids. But my boss was a bitch and they wouldn’t give me full time. Sooo I got a live in nanny position in Baltimore…more on that then lol. Ad gave my notice but they pissed me off bad a week later and I walked out so it turned sour which sucks cus I wanted to see my kids and shit, oh well I guess shit happens.

Alright well tomorrow I'll try and fill ya in on everything else im soooo tired right now so nighty night.

HELL YEAH

2008-02-04T03:15:33Z

YYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH GIANTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ghetto_baby @ 2008-02-01T01:27:00

2008-02-01T06:36:05Z

uhh i feel like crap. I dont really no why either. I went out to Nikkis house in columbia on monday night. It was cool but we didnt really do anything. I hadnt seen her in sooo long. I was soo nervous about going to her house..i really wish i new why i got like that. I hate it, i keep just telling myselp to live life. i hate my freakin anxiety.She gave her friend Jeremy my myspace and aim..lol. so we talked like all night that night. then tuesday night he wanted me to come hang out, and i did it!!!!!!! Usually i would be way to nervous to ever do it. Now i dont know if i regret it or not, ill explain then. Soo i get to his house at like 2am lol. He was cute and really cool. We layed in his bed and watched slc punk and tv..and messed around a lil bit. He was soooooo much fun though..uhh. Problem is he has like 7000 girls that are in love with him and he does hard drugs. He showed me his coke needle lol. Im not sure whether i like him or if i just miss that feeling. I think its the second thing. But he hasnt really talked to me at all since then so i kinda feel used..i dk. Im trippen over him for no reason but it has me feeling like crap. So i took a risk and had a great time but now feel shitty.

Anyways...adam..my 9th grade LOVE broke up with his gf..shes psycho tho and flipped out at me the other day so i dont no whether i should persue that or not. i really miss him tho. like a lot. Its been sooo long. i leave for pittsburgh tomorrow. i dont even feel excited right now which really sucks.. Who knows i pray that i feel better in the morning. cya

ghetto_baby @ 2008-01-26T03:05:00

2008-01-26T08:17:05Z

Hey everyone. So me and sarah ended up going to wild J's, but cameron wimped out and made some lame excuse up. whatever im done dealing with him. It was tonsss of fun. They had a feature dancer named jada deville, and she like lit her whole body on fire and did some crazy adams family shit, it was sooo cool. Sarah actually got up on stage with her lol, it was nuts. Jada rode on sarahs face with her bare pussy. She did all kinds of crazy stuff. Then out on the floor she grabbed my boobs and started playing with them lol. Last weekend sarah and i went down to maryland to see her friends, it was fun. But the person whos house we stayed at wanted us in at 11, so that kinda put me in a bad mood, i dk. It was cool though.

Next weekend we are going to PITTSBURGH and i am super excited. We are staying with Clinton, i dont no if i ever told that story. But 2 years ago he was dating lindsay but he was in LOVE with me, we actually ended up messing around and he got totally obsessed with me so that was kinda scary, but i think hes calmed down since then. He was going to school here but he moved back up there,i havemt seen him in almost 2 years so im pretty nervous, but he is really cool and its a free place to stay lol. and then of course im gonna hang out with Grant for a little bit. I am just so excited!! Sarah better not back out, and nothing better not get fucked up!!

Umm me and jeff still talk but we havent been together for 2 months and he is not taking it well at all, i mean at all. I dk how to help him though. I am pretty much enjoying being single.

Uhhh i am sooo stressed about money. My credit card bill is 1500 dollars!!! Ahhhh i have none in my bank account. But of course i went out and got my nails done today and baught a pair of adorable light pink and black nike air force 2's and hot pink and black sparkly jordans. The nikes were 55 and the jordans were 85...thank god i can wear kids sizes!! oh and i baught crest white strips and they were 25 bucks, they better work!!

Work is still amazing and school still sucks lol. But thats about it i guess. Here are some pictures

Me and Carissa

Me and half of her head lol

there are from right before we went to wild j;s 2 weeks ago

I dont normally like little babies, but Brianna who is 4 months old is amazing, lol. I am in love with her!!!

Her and my other fave garrison playing

Me, mom, and brianna went to baltimore a few months ago, it was tons of fun. But here are the pics..sorry if they are huge,,please dont bitch at me :)

ghetto_baby @ 2008-01-11T03:19:00

2008-01-11T08:22:53Z

Hey guys, I know it’s been forever!! I am soo sorry. But I do still read all of yours I just don’t always comment. But i've read pretty much everything. I guarantee it!!! Nothing really huge has been going on with me, but I’ll put it into sections and try to keep it short.

So with School I finished my last semester with good grades, but was thankful it was over although I miss my soc girls. So that sucks. The new semester started yesterday and because of a new job I had to cancel all 3 classes I was taking and schedule more, but they were all already filled. Sooo I am taking my science class..which I am kinda glad getting it outta the way…I chose environmental science, but its an online class that seems fairly easy. I have to write a letter to a public official, take 3 tests, and participate in the discussion boards, so that seems easy. I’ll just have to study my ass off before the test. Then I am taking Intro to sociology which I shoulda done already. It’s a huuuge morning class which seems alright, I don’t really know what to think about that one yet. I could only find 2 that worked with such short notice so that really sucks. I’m gonna use the 500 dollar loan money that I will get back to pay my credit card bill.. it'll pay half at least.

So I think I already said that I quit blockbuster because I was there and a year and a half and was getting paid less then new employees and they claimed they couldn’t do anything about it. So I went to Turkey hill and HATED it. So stupid me quit without having another job on Dec 23rd. Well…thank god I did that because I got a job at the etown childcare center in the infant room. I just started Monday but I loooove it! I am so attached to the babies already. Uhh its better pay and sooooo much better then retail. So yeah I am super happy about that, I am actually excited to go to work tomorrow.

I broke up with Jeff about 2 months ago or so. I don’t really want to get into it. I just cant take care of someone my whole life. He is going insane and I wish there was something I could do but there isn’t. I don’t know. I need to be single..its been like 4 god damn years!! I wish I could meet someone lol

Ali parties allll the time and im not into that anymore, but we still chill and talk like once every week or so. We went to see Sweeny Todd the other day which was amaaazing. But she got a new boyfriend and stuff. I dk. I still talk to grant all the time, im like his damn therapist lol. I told her not to take his damn virginity. I started talking to Taylor again, so that’s cool. Kayla is mad at me who knows why. Lindsay still lives with that guy, we talk fairly often but haven’t chilled yet. Her man seems like a real asshole. There’s other people I could talk about that I talk to occasionally but I don’t feel like it they don’t really matter right now. (side note-damnnn I wish I could write a paper for school this fast!!!)

But…Sarah, from blockbuster, and I have become really close over the past 2 weeks. We went to see Rent together, my second time, it was amaazzziiinngg. We’ve been out to eat, to the mall, ect a bunch of times. Then Friday night we went about an hour away and met 2 of her really good friends about an hour away at a strip club they go to all the time called wild j’s..look it up on Google they have a website if interested. So it was my first time but sooooooo much damn fun. The girls were awesome and sooo nice. They hugged me when I left and stuff. Haha I got 4 lap dances, it was just a fun time. Then we went bar hopping and got kicked out of 2 bars because of me being under age lol. Damn only being 19. So we went back to Scott and Stacies huuuge ass house at like 3:30am and slept there. It was an awesome time, I loved it. So tomorrow were taken Cameron with us!! Yay I am soo excited but kinda nervous. Anyway, I guess that’s all I'll talk about for now. Cya guys.

ghetto_baby @ 2007-12-22T16:10:00

2007-12-22T21:11:14Z

Ok, so i am getting a tattoo of a boombox with my cousin Justins name in it and his date of birth and date of death. Some background....He was not just my cousin but my best friend...when he was 17 years old he hung himself. I am getting the boombox because he was so passionate about music, he shaped all of my musical tastes, and music just brings me back to him. But i want to get a quote along with the tattoo..does anyone have any ideas???????? It can be positive obviously. THANKS!!!

New pics

2007-12-19T22:38:48Z

Soooo i dont really feel like updating. I quit blockbuster and work at Turkey hill and hate it. I need out like ASAP. I broke up with Jeff about 3 weeks ago, ive been talking to a few boys i dk though. ummm i dont know lol.. I'll update sooner or later

I tried to lighten my hair from black myself and lets just say i completely screwed it up, so i had to go spend 220 dollars to get it fixed! I keep complaining about how i miss my long hair, and then i go get 4 inches or so cut of and 2 in the front. and it is lighter then it has ever been in my life. I had 8 chemical processes on my hair in 2 days...so it is completely DEAD! I'm not even sere if i like it

This was before i got it fixed at the salon, you cant really see, but the top and underneath was bright yellow and the rest was puke orange.

ghetto_baby @ 2007-11-21T01:45:00

2007-11-21T06:51:10Z

Hey guys sorry its been so long. Nothing really has been going on. I quit Blockbuster, after working there for over a year, and i got a job at Turkey Hill..she PROMOSED me 30-35 hours a week but has not done that yet :( annoying. But everyone at blockbuster took it really well, and now Tina quit! lol. Turkey Hill is alright, the people seem cool so far, i don't know. They are a lot different then me,but so is everyone i ever work with lol. I am hoping i dont work on friday, if i do i'm really gonna cry!!! I WANNA SHOP damn it.

Jeff and I have looked at a few apartments, i fell in love with one, but it's taken, so that sucks. Our date is Dec 15th, i am SO damn excited, but really worried. Everyone is doubting us, and mainly jeff and its really annoying. But i dont know, if we cant move on the 15th then things are gonna get bad. Anyways....my whole room is in boxes,lol..and ive spent waaaaaaay too much money on shit for the place. I got aproved for my first credit card by the way,lol. A Disney one!!! I'll be careful, I know. But yeah, jeff and i are fine, nothing really to say about it.

Me and Taylor are cool again i think,lol. And me and Ali still talk damn near everyday. We went to the mall on Saturday and then me, her, and jeff hung at her house till 3am, it was funnnn. School is till going good, almost done thank god. Well thats about it, i don't feel like writing but i thought i should update.

ghetto_baby @ 2007-10-17T01:11:00

2007-10-17T05:18:16Z

Hey guys. Nothings really going on here i just thought i'd update. My dad fixed my car on Friday so i'm really excited about that, and i found a used starter so I only had to pay 35$. But i went to the mall and spent over a 100 dollars, but I got 2 pairs of work pants plus 5 shirts so It's alright. I hate thinking about money. I just complained about my pay though, so I am getting a raise now as a CSR and when i get my promotion which should be within these next couple weeks. I went in after school tonight and did half my moduals, i just have a few more to do. I missed my psychology class again for the 3rd time in a row! not good at all. Ali, Hunter, Travis, me, and Jeff all went to Jasons Woods saturday night, we had a good time but the line was huuuuge and i actually think i like Field of Screams better. We got there at 9 and didnt even get on the first thing till 11:45. I slept at Jeffs that night obviously. Sooo nothing really has been going on other then that. I better be getting this raise asap or I am applying other places, my pay is rediculous. alright well hopifuly Jeff and I are going to look at apartments tomorrow night. I dont know though, i wanna get a place more then ANYTHING i;m just paranoid as hell about the money thing. ahhh stress sucks. Alright well i'm gonna go, cya guys.

ghetto_baby @ 2007-10-12T01:13:00

2007-10-12T05:19:28Z

Hey guys what’s up? Nothing really here. I guess Kayla’s pissed at me cus I “ditched” her Saturday night. But whatever, I cant deal with this high school drama..i’m in my second year of college damn. I guess me and Taylor are cool again though which is good. Im tryin to see if she wants to come to Jason’s Woods with us all on Saturday since I haven’t chilled with her in forever. My car is dead, it needs a new starter, so it REALLY sucks. Then I gotta pay for registration, 2 new pairs of work pants a whole bunch of crap. Geeze I just wanna move the hell out and it seems like I'll never be able too. I have to take my car to get inspected, that alto be fun. Grrrrrrrrrr I hate stress. I missed my psychology class AGAIN today.

Uhh anyway. Grant moved back to Pittsburgh, I feel so bad for him, he still talks to me and stuff, but ali is really getting annoyed because he is SO damn obsessed with her. Its insane and definitely not healthy at all! But I feel real bad for him, plus I miss him cus he was cool as shit. I chilled with ali yesterday, we went out to eat at Chilis then drove all over the place..before my car died today. We went back to her house and watched hostel 2 which was CRAZY and I was too scared to drive home so I slept there,lol.

Alright I FINALLY got new pics to show cus I don’t think I ever put any up of my hair after I cut 10 inches off!

My school stuff on the floor in the bathroom,lol. I was bored

Before getting my hair cut...

After getting it cut...

Pics I took on Tuesday

We both look bad but oh well.

She would NOT pose with me,lol

My phone cam is such a piece of shit

ghetto_baby @ 2007-10-08T01:34:00

2007-10-08T05:51:41Z

Hey guys, I really need to stop waiting to post, i always forget what i wanted to talk about. Well heres what I remember of my week

Monday-I got out of work at 4 and picked Jeff up from the park, we went to BK and talked, that sat in my car forever and talked. We went back to his house and he cried for hours in my arms, that was about it. Very emotional day

Tuesday-School...I was suposed to go to Jeffs after but he was having a ton of problems, i guess he was on too many meds and was completly sedated, so that was a mess.

Wednesday. I worked with Cameron all day and that was lotsss of fun, we had a really good time most the night, i love working with him...usually. At 11 Jeff called me and told me to come sleep over,lol. So I did. IT was cool, we went to Sheetz and got food and watched Wrong Turn 2 which was pretty good. We stayed up till 6, so of course i didnt go to my psych class,lol. I went to my other two though.

Thursday-nothing but what i just said

Friday. Jeff was sick and pissed me off cus i wanted to hang out. But Kayla called me to go to a haunted thing with her. so I went down there around 730, but of course plans changed,lol. We went and hung out with a bunch of people in lancaster, it was actually fun. The 2 other girls were really cool and it takes a hell of a lot for me to say that. So I went home around 2am. But the fog was so bad that i could not see ANYTHING, it was so scary.

Saturday-I worked till5 then faught with Jeff on the phone-drama that i dont feel like getting into, but eventually it ended up being i took brianna too chucky cheese, then Jeff and me went around and talked. I went back too his house then. He was being super weird and not talking and being all depressed cus he knows how I am feeling and i guess he cant stop crying and stuff. I tried to tell him that him acting wierd is not helping at all!! Uhhh the drama

Today-worked all day

I am so freaking stressed out. I work with Cameron tomorrow night so i hope he is in one of his cool moods, he can be totally kick ass and sometimes really sucky to work with.I guess I'm gonna try to get up early and go to the mall to get new work pants, i shouldnt spend the money but i need too, i am feeling like shit. Well I'm gonna go, cya

ghetto_baby @ 2007-09-30T23:43:00

2007-10-01T03:52:20Z

Hey guys, whats up? So I wasnt so sure about going to Field of Screams with out Jeff, but I had a LOT of fun. I mean I thought about him obviously, but still. It was sooo much fun! Kayla and some of her friends went and Nikki and some of her friends went cus i told them all too,lol. But they didnt do any of the scary shit, they watched the rap battles the whole time, we did some of the time with them, i was just bouncen back and forth between them. But me, Ali, Grant, and Alis lil bro Hunter did all the stuff together, me and ali act crazy so that made it even more awesome. I screamed in Michaels face so that was super exciting,lol. I cant wait to go to Jasons Woods in 2 weeks!!!! I think there all coming with me and Jeff. Jeff and I wanna go to one by ourselves and we were gonna go to Sickmans Mill but i heard it wasnt all that great so does anyone know of a good one in PA???????? Uhhh I wish it was Halloween all year round,lol. I love it. Alright well Jeff gets out tomorrow so thats awesome, cya guys

ghetto_baby @ 2007-09-28T22:15:00

2007-09-29T02:21:03Z

Uhh I can't deal with this. I miss him so much, like more then I normally do. But when I talk to him...20 min last night and 20 mins tonight..cus he has to use a phone card..i'm so mean. I can't help it though. I really cant. But of course as soon as we get of the phone i wanna be like i love you and miss you baby, all that. I REALLY wish I could call and say that :( I PRAY that he gets out on Monday for sure. I mean even though i'm upset, and all that i still just can't wait to see him and he is my baby and I want him to feel better. :( I wish I could sleep these 2 days away!

I called off work tonight, i feel crappy about it but oh well. Ive only done it one other time the whole year i have worked there so they can get over it. I work tomorrow 1-6 and then me, ali, grant, and hunter are going to Field of Screams and probly meeting kayla and her friends there. I don't really like it there, i LOVE Jasons Woods, but they are having rap battles tomorrow night and i love that shit. So yeah, in October I guess we'll be going to Jasons woods and Sickmans Mill. YAY i looove Halloween. Then I work 3-1030 on sunday..and 10-3 on monday. I Hope he's home by the time I get off work monday. I miss him. A lot.

ghetto_baby @ 2007-09-27T00:39:00

2007-09-27T04:49:46Z

Ok guys so sorry about that post yesterday, it was a little crazy. But here is what happened. I dropped Jeff off on Sunday before going to work because we had spent the weekend together and had a kick ass time. Ok so I didn’t talk to him at all on Monday and by Tuesday night I thought this was a little strange so I called his mom and she is being totally weird but tells me he's in some psychiatric hospital in freaking Philly. So im freaking out on the phone obviously and she wouldn’t tell me anything other then its too gruesome to talk about and all this crazy shit...but wouldn’t tell me what happened and didn’t even call me!!!! So I’m like I've been dating him for 3 years I think I have a right to know and I damn well thing I should have been called and she didn’t say anything. So I have been crying non stop and all that. So finally he called me tonight. I guess him and his mom had been fighting all day cus she’s psycho and doesn’t want him to move out, I dk. So he says he blacked out but other ppl told him what happened, I guess he threatened her and punched her car window in. So she called the cops and he went to the ER and is now at that place he says till Monday or Tuesday. This has not happened in over a year and he seemed fine!!! So I was like I cant deal with this my whole life Jeff, how am I supposed to feel safe around u and all that. He started bawling and promising he'd take his meds everyday this time and please don’t leave him and all that. Uhh why cant anything in my life ever be normal?!?!? I don’t know what the fuck to do.

Ok, so I feel much better that I know what happened but I am still SO angry at his mom. We used to be super close and all that. But about 2 months ago when we started talking about moving out she has been a total bitch to me. I think saying it was too gruesome to talk about was completely un called for! Does she know what kind of shit was going through my head?!?! Seriously. and she didn’t even call me but she called his fucking boss. What a bitch, I don’t think I can be nice to her anymore, I really don’t. Alright well im gonna go now, cya

Fuck You

2007-09-26T05:54:53Z

Why can't I EVER HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT SOMETHING THAT IS FUCKNG NORMAL!!!!!!!!!!! I cant do this. I thought he was fine for months now. Aparently not. WTF. All his mom will tell me is that it was gruesome!! WHAT THE FUCK kinds of things does she think that i am thinking now?!?!?!?! This is bull shit. Why the fuck wasnt i called earlier. I had to call her!!! Why does this shit always happen. I cant do this my whole fucking life, i cant! I dont know what the hell to do. I cant do this. I cant help but be selfish though. Here goes my moving out plans!! ALL THE FUCKING SHIT WE GOT ALL THE PLANS...Probably DOWN THE FUCKING DRAIN. I was suposed to be going to field of screams this weekend, well thats fucking ruined now. GREAT! AND I DONT EVEN NO WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED!!!!!!!! WTF! Fuckthis shit. i cant take this forever, i just can not handle this. Why is this happening again, i thought everything was ok! WHY THE FUCK CANT EVERYTHING BE OK FOR MORE THEN A FEW GOD DAMN MONTHS!!!!!!!!!!!!! seriosuly, I can only have a like 2 or 3 months of happiness, sometimes less and it turns into this shit again and everything has to start the fuck over. this is bull shit, GOD!!!!!!! Fuck this. I cant take it. Seriosuly, ive been with him for god damn mother fucking years and i dont even know whats going on! WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I dont know how long he will be there, where its at, or even WHY THE FUCK HE IS THERE. All i know was that he was stressed about money earlier in the day yesterday and then did something "gruesome" and went to the ER. Greeeaaaat, thats a lot of fucking help huh? Uh what the fuck ever, fuck this shit.

ghetto_baby @ 2007-09-24T01:21:00

2007-09-24T05:23:04Z

So my parents have been in Vegas all week for there 10 year anni and my moms 40th bday! I cant't believe she's 40!!!! Wow. I can NOT wait for her to come home tomorrow, i miss my mommy. Well Brianna and I went to the Humane society one night to see the animals, its sad though. Then we went to Friendlys, then another night we went shopping in York and I got a few things for the apartment. Last night Jeff slept at nanny;s with me. Me, him, and Beans went Glow Bowling, that was fun. Nothing else really to update on, so cya.

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ghetto_baby @ 2007-09-18T22:26:00

2007-09-19T02:32:07Z

Hey guy, sorry I never update anymore, at least I still comment though. Sonothing really has been going on. I am in the middle of getting a promotion at work, so thats cool. I'' basically be a subsitute manager. When one is sick or something I can cover for them, so I hope it's a decent raise. I'm not sure of all the details yet. But Laura has kept up with her part of the deal she's been giving me like 25-30 hours every week. So basically I go to school and work every single day, it sucks. Oh I got an A on both of the tests i've had do far so thats cool.

Jeff and I are doing great. We just had out mine vacation, it was lots of fun. We are getting a place together in Novemember, so as soon as i get this 250$ check from tmobile we are going shopping for stuff we need. We already have all of the furniture and tons more stuff that my family has been saving. So its all pretty awesome and I am SUPER excited.

Lindsay actually called me and apolagized, I don't know I dont think I can forgive her. Me and Ali chill just not tons cus I am ALWAYS busy, it's crazy. Well thats pretty much it I think, I'll try to update more. cya guys

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY

2007-09-05T19:53:25Z

I PASSED THE TEST!!! I FINALLY GOT MY LICENSE!

Ahhhhhh, now i have to drive by myself, i'm scared,lol

Not a real update

2007-09-05T02:35:21Z

I am taking the license test again tomorrow and I am sooo nervous i think i could puke. It sucks, i hate this! I just want to have my freaking license. ahhhhhhhhhh

ghetto_baby @ 2007-08-29T01:53:00

2007-08-29T05:59:30Z

Hey guys what’s up? Umm well Saturday was my bday, but I didn’t really do anything except go out to Fractured Prune for lunch then Stevie B’s with the fam and Jeff. I slept at Jeff’s that night then. ALI MOVED HOME!! So she picked me up from work Sunday night and I was with her till today, her and Grant came to school with me and shit too, lol. He’s pretty cool, real quiet though. I can tell he’s never been in a relationship before and that he just turned 18. But it’s alright for now. We went out Monday night to eat in York, lol. Then Travis came and got us and they went to get smoke and we went to Crack Creek or some shit. It was ok; I missed Jeff a lot though for some reason. I REALLY need a new job with a lot more hours, I want to have a place with Jeff before this damn winters over, I can’t take it anymore. Oh and I have to take the damn drivers test next week again, I REALLY don’t wanna, I don’t even wanna think about it eww. Well I guess I am gonna go cya guys

Pictures

2007-08-20T05:45:11Z

Some are new some are old...

Ali way back in the day

Me a looong time ago, the last time i had short hair, i left it up the whole time at the beach and it got in a massive naught so i had to get it all cut off, it was horrible

My hair like 5 months ago, loooong

aww we both kinda looked stoned though

bad pic of me, but my hair more recently. This doesnt even look like me,lol

me sad a while ago, crying

My hair is like an inch or 2 longer then this now, sorry about the hair pics they are for my own referance

Me and ali

New pics.......

this is kinda old i guess

My awesome toe nails and shoes

I liked my eye make up but you still cant really see it

I was SUPER stressed

update

2007-08-20T05:28:46Z

Hey guys. Uhh I am so stressed lately. I need more hours at work, it was good for a few weeks but now sucks again, and I wanna get a place with Jeff so bad, it’s crazy. I think it would make our relationship a 1000 times stranger. I just think we are definitely ready. I spent all weekend there it was nice, we layed and did nothing. They got a puppy, it so freaking cute, I want one so bad. I’m excited to get a place so foo foo can be out all day, it’ll be nice. I added Jeff to my cell plan, it’ll save me money each month, so that’s nice. But his phone that he got broke already, but he has till Sunday to go get a new one. Our 3 year anniversary is coming up and he thought of the best idea. Since neither of us drive we are going to the Crowne Plaza…a SUPER nice hotel in Harrisburg for the weekend of September 14, it’ll be awesome. He paid for the hotel and I am paying for our food and the museum were going to. Ahh I can’t wait, it’ll be so cute. His 21rst bday is on September 6th and my 19th is August 25th…yay!! I am soooo excited to get my hair done, I’ll definitely have pics afterwards.

Eww I go back to school on Tuesday and I am so damn stressed about it Since I still don’t have my license I am going to have to sit at hacc for 2 and a half hours between 3 of the classes, I’m gonna go nuts. I go take the test again on September 5ht, but with my luck ill fail again. Ugh, if I pass that I think it will relieve so much stress. I hope these classes are cool and easy,lol. Of course.

Other then that I guess everything is alright. Ali was going to move home and I was SO freaking excited, but of course that’s not happening now. OH and Lindsay, who was supposed to be my good friend hangs out with one leg now. I told her she was fake and I don’t have time for that drama in my life. This is why I don’t chill with anyone; everyone has tons of drama, all the damn time. I don’t need that in my life, its so annoying. Alright well I’m gonna go cya guys.

Finally an update

2007-08-09T04:25:37Z

So I thought it was about time for an update. Well I guess Jeff and I made up…I don’t even remember how it happened. We always do this shit over the summer, I don’t understand why and it really sucks. We aren’t usually like this through out the rest of the year. So hopefully we’ll make it for our 3 year anni in a month and a half. I’m pissed at him right now for something I don’t feel like writing about, I’m not sure if it’s even his fault :/ But he’s been having nightmares for a month now about me cheating on him and all sorts of things, I don’t even know. He keeps saying how he really wants to get a place together and all that. I think it would REALLY help us. We both just need to be more stable financially. He’s been selling and that REALLY bothers me. He says he isn’t though, mmm hmmm. The other nigh one of my regulars was standing at the counter for an hour and a half waiting for a copy of 300 to come in, lol. Well he’s married and has a baby, but I guess it did kind of seem like he was flirting with me. He is one of those guys that are never serious, always joking around. Well Jeff walks in with roses for me while that guy was there of course, lol. But the roses were soo cute. He always does random stuff like that. Its defiantly one of the things I love about him. Other then that I don’t really know what to say about us.

Me and Laura have really been getting along. I’ve had a lot more hours at work the past few weeks; I don’t know how long it will last though. Hopefully a while.

My birthday is soon, I’m getting my hair cut and dyed, its gonna be a huge change so I am SO exited. Then in the beginning of October I am getting another tat that I can’t wait for.

Ali has had so much drama; I think she is actually moving home at the end of the month. Honestly I’m veryyy happy, haha. I miss having a best friend. I don’t know though, I have been having a really hard time trusting people lately. My psychiatrist upped the Lamictal, added another med, and told me to take the Klonapin 2 times a day instead of just as needed. It’s been pretty bad.

I start my second year of college in less then 2 weeks and I still don’t have my damn license. I went to take the test again like a week ago and I was actually feeling fairly confident but on the way over my car died. AHHH so now I can’t take it again till September 5th, why the hell are there such long waits??? I really need to pass it. I went to get my books today and they were 250$!!! AAHH

Ok well sorry that was so long, cya guys.

ghetto_baby @ 2007-07-27T04:02:00

2007-07-27T08:03:46Z

Hey guys, well I'm going to get my hair cut and dyed at the end of August. Only problem is I don't really know what I want. I want it shorter, like my shoulders, I want it, I don’t want to say trendy but I don’t know how to explain it. Then I want it dyed black all over with different color streaks….any idea’s??? Pics of your hair would be grand!!! Thanks :)